Monday, August 6, 2012

There’s an Alp on my Chest


I don’t know why I’m still updating this. I’m not doing investigations anymore. I guess it’s just habit to talk about things that are happening to me now.

I had another nightmare. It’s weird because this is the first one I’ve had since Tallie died. I figured I wouldn’t get any rest after that. I thought I would relive that horrid terror and guilt again and again. Until now, though, it’s just been darkness. The warm and blanket-y kind of darkness, not like the kind I found in the closet. Sleep has actually been a bit of comfort until now.

But I digress.

In my nightmare, I was going through my morning routine. It was one of those realistic dreams where you think that you’ve actually woken up. I got up, went to the bathroom, nothing seemed odd or out of place. However, as I went to wash my face, I saw something off in the mirror. My hurt eye was bloodshot. It looked painful, but it wasn’t. While I looked at it, the inflamed veins spread. They moved forward until they consumed my entire eye in bloody red, wriggling and writhing as they did so. For some reason, I didn’t react. I just watched calmly as if it were the most normal thing in the world to have your eye consumed by writhing blood vessels.

The veins started moving out of my eye, growing until they were like branching tentacles. They spread over my face and burrowed into my skin. I started laughing. My good eye widened with hysteria as I laughed and laughed and watched myself be consumed in the mirror. I laughed as the tentacles spread down my head, wrapping around my neck, burrowing into my body, stirring up my flesh and bones. I laughed and laughed until they filled my throat and cut off my breathing, and then I still shook with inescapable masochistic mirth.

It wasn’t scary until I woke up this time.

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