Decisions Decisions

I’ve decided to leave. I’m not sure where I’m going, but I can’t stay here. Yes, I’m still blind in one eye, and yes, that makes me vulnerable. I don’t care. I can’t stand it here. There are too many reminders of my failures, and too many people giving me that disgusting look of pity. I’ve got enough self-pity as it is.

Maybe I’m running from my failures. I’m not going to pretend I’m stronger than that. I’m not going to fool myself into thinking I can start over. Too many lives have been lost for that to ever happen. I just need to be somewhere where people doing give me those looks. Where people don’t look at me at all.

Hell might be a good place