Do not stand at my grave and weep,

I am not there; I do not sleep.

I am a thousand winds that blow,

I am the diamond glints on snow,

I am the sun on ripened grain,

I am the gentle autumn rain.

When you awaken in the morning's hush

I am the swift uplifting rush

Of quiet birds in circling flight.

I am the soft star-shine at night.

Do not stand at my grave and cry,

I am not there; I did not die.

They Always Come True

It was just like Silent said.

That all-too-familiar voice.

The same words the same actions.

I promised that I wouldn’t harm him.

I promised a lot of things.

Past Lives

Yuki's angry at me. I think I can understand why, I understand now, anyway. I've been trying to get her to open up, and I know she wants me to trust her. I want to trust her too. So I finally managed to weasel a little of her past out. Obviously, she's not going to let me go and tell you all her life story.

According to her, it shouldn't matter anyway. As she said, all of that was lost a while ago. In my opinion, she wouldn't be so adamant about hiding if it really didn't matter.

To be honest, though, some of you already know her past.

Bogus

Silent is wrong. I don’t care how hard he researched and all the stupid pseudo-scientific things he’s done, he’s wrong. I know for a fact that there are multiple Fears.

I can’t believe this was the theory he was talking about.

I would have stopped him right at the beginning.

Observation, getting more specialized, all that is bullshit.

They just want to fuck with our heads, turn us against each other, and watch us suffer.

Results

I’m making another page for the full version of what I’ve concluded, since I imagine some of you don’t want to have to sift through all the technical details. Long story short is: there is only one Fear. Obviously it is something beyond our current comprehension, but it probably operates within a higher dimension with us, allowing it to appear in multiple places seemingly instantaneously. I don’t want to get into all that; I know you guys can Google.

Basically, I haven’t magically come up with an explanation of the Fears that completely demystifies the thing. It’s still as eldritch as ever. But there is only one. And it has been changing. It molds itself to our fears and what we respond to, accounting for the sudden increase and appearance of new Fears.

But again, if you want all the technical details, look at the “Singluaris Theory” page.

Yuki is anything but pleased with me for doing this. She refuses to believe that the Fears are a single entity. I almost feel like I’ve told her that the Earth revolves around the Sun. I’m pretty sure it has to do with something she hasn’t told me, but it’s not my place to pry.

Last questions

Silent's getting a bit antsy, so we both decided to put the final two questions in one post. Again, be as specific as possible, and thanks a lot for helping us out with that. I know some of these can get personal, and it's hard to open up about those things.

Question Four:
Why do you think there has been a surge in Fear activity and a sudden emergence of previously unheard of Fears? If you believe that they were created recently, how and why?

Question Five:
What do you think the Fears are?

Question Three

What type of person do you think each of the Fears targets (for example, the Plague Doctor targets hypochondriacs, the Cold Boy targets lonely people, etc)?

Again, please be specific (more specific than my examples).

Second Question

If you/someone you know has been targeted by a Fear (or Fears), what was your/their experience?

If don't mind, please be as detailed as possible.

Group Project

Silent’s been pretty morbid lately.

I’m sure you noticed that from his posts before he freaked out.

Anyway, he’s asked me for help on a project of his. He wants us to focus all of our energy on it because he wants it completed as soon as possible.

As in, he wants it finished before he dies.

I don’t think that will be a problem. I haven’t noticed any immediate threats around us. Still, this is one thing that Silent won’t be budging on.

So, updates on this blog will probably be infrequent, and we’ll probably be asking some questions.

So, first question:

How many Fears do you think there are/How many different Fears have you noticed?

Update

After much badgering, I convinced Silent to allow me to handle his blog for now and to take him to a free clinic about his eye. I can be very coercive at times.

To clarify, Silent’s eye was never bleeding that much. It was still enough to be worrying. So, even though it hadn’t stopped bleeding since yesterday, he hadn’t lost a lot of blood when I took him to see someone.

After looking at it, the doctor couldn’t really tell what was going on. It was a lot of bleeding for an eye, and she said that Silent would probably need surgery.

Well, neither of us have that sort of money let alone insurance, so I asked for other options.

There’s not a lot. Unless his eye heals on its own, it’s looking like Silent is never going to get his depth perception back.

Good Evening Everyone

This is Yuki.

I am hijacking Silent’s blog for the night.

He’s… not well. Not that I can say much, I’m sure you all started questioning me a long time ago.

Right after he wrote up that last post (these things always seem to happen when he goes to update this thing) he suddenly started screaming.

Not even a dignified yell, the kid was screaming. I couldn’t get him to calm down enough to tell me anything other than babbling before his eye started bleeding.

Eventually I had to restrain him and give him a few sleeping pills so that I could try to figure out what was going on with his eye. There seemed to be nothing wrong with it (other than the obvious).

The bleeding has stopped for now, and Silent is awake. I’m not letting him near this blog for now though. I don’t have enough knowledge from my short time with Doc and running around to know what to do about his eye. I want him to get it checked out by someone, but he doesn’t seem to trust eye doctors.

We’ll see.

Cold

I never realized exactly how little I knew about Yuki until today. I knew I didn’t know much about her, but I never realized the difference between knowing and knowing. Humans are incredibly complex beings. I think I knew Tallie and Andrew, they were a couple of the best friends I’ve ever had. But I only knew Tallie for a couple of months. Andrew grew up without me. I probably couldn’t tell you their favorite colors.

I’m getting off topic. Yuki went out today. That was normal. She does that every few days. When I asked her where she was going, she just told me to stay where I was and that she had to “Work something up.”

Again, not important. When she came back she went straight into the bathroom and turned on the shower. About an hour later, the shower was still running and I had to go pee. She didn’t answer when I knocked, and I got a little worried. When I checked the door, I was surprised to find that it was unlocked.

When I opened the door I was hit with a blast of steam that blinded me for a few moments. She had the shower turned as hot as it would go. She was sitting curled up under the stream of water fully dressed and soaked through. Her skin was bright red from the hot water, but she was shivering. I noticed her knuckles were bloodied and a bruise was forming on her cheek.

She wouldn’t let me touch her, but she also said she didn’t want me to leave. It was really awkward, but it made me realize that there’s something under her cold shell. She still refuses to talk about what she’s been through. After that, I think I’m okay with leaving her to her silence.

Heart-to-?

Yuki sat me down and we had a long talk. I’d call it a heart-to-heart, but it was less emotional than that. She was as distant as usual, but she really wanted me to understand that she had no intention of killing me, despite that stupid vision/dream/thing.

It may be stupid, but I believe her. She seemed… well, not quite upset, but disturbed by the fact that I thought she was going to kill me. It’s pretty stupid to put so much faith in magical visions anyway. I assured her that I believed her. I still don’t quite trust her, but it’s better to run with friends.